Hello, It has been a long time that I have wrote something on here....Life has change in the last year, things that I would of never thought would, Just this past October or church split and So same of us started a new church, I'm thinkful that I want to sereve God the best way I know how and don't want any part of the world ,I have no desire for the worldly things , but it is hard when you don't have a partner in church and don't have the some ideas of fun , And just this past Noverber My husband wanted a divorce,he desided to stay but I believe it b/c of our kids and it is easyer to stay and do what he wants then to leave he is never home he is always out doing his own thing and I'm always home taking care of our kids , He is being like a kids not a 40 year old man...ever scent then we have not been the same with each other,I feel like I have a roommate not a husband, it is so lonely and sad..but I'm glad I know Jesus Christ or it would be hard to live like this......

weight problem

Today was a beauitful day outside , did not get to enjoy it like i would of like too, it one of those days that my side was hurting really bad, had to take IBProfpen But I got my house clean all but my clothes for some reason I can't stand doing it , it all the putting away.......I got on my will fit today and so did my daughter it has been one week that I got it and already lost 2.2 pounds and my daughter already lost 1.3 pounds it is not like she needs to lose weight but it giving her something to do sents we don't have a yard, and she needs to move around , but me in the other hand I need to lose about 125 pounds to be at my goal weight, it is been a hard battle for the last 4 1/2 months but all i can say is 20 pounds gone and 105 to go............I don't want my kids to see me fat for the rest of my life and not be able to do stuff w/them .My daughter starts school this year and I don't want her to think of me as the ugly and fat mommy, I think that my hardest problem is giving up my pop and sweets , I have always like healthy food , but my sweets get in the way wish that i could just eat a little at a time but when i start i feel like i can't stop.I need help w/it , I just wish my husband will help and get on the ball too , b/c it he does not it will die of a heart atack,he has breathing problems already and sleeps w/a breather.......I just wish i had morel support ......................................here is praying for another good day w/family and friends.

My problems

It was a raining morning and than the rain stop but still very cold, it was a very indoor day My brother come over for a little while and played Wii fit and a racing game....This Wii fit is a very fun workout ,I've been doing weight watch for the last 4 1/2 months the weight is coming off but very slowly but now that I have the wii fit I can workout and have fun at the sometime I'm hopping that it will help my daughter but if I don't get her more active she will be like me fattttt I do not want that ,Sometimes I think the reason I'm this way is b/c I'm unhappy and don't really know why... I know that I'm a house Wife and there is resondsabiltes I have but it fulls like I never have anytime for myself and feel like I'm always cleaning, My husband is one of those men that think it is my duties to take care of him b/c he work outside the home...I wish there was another way to get thought to him to help around the house, I don't want my son to thing the same way I want him to respect girls ........It is been a lazy day ,praying that tomorrow is much nicer so we can go for a walk outside everyone need a little fresh air and the sun shine on there skin.....Good night and God bless

Got up this morning and makes french toast , then I went to wal-mart to pick up some flower b/c I put flower arrangements up at church and need some purple flower for Easter I wanted the church to look like spring well my brother come to help me by watching my kids so i could get them done so while I was making sure they looked nice He was playing on the piano and singing with my daughter, she loves to sing.....Then when all that was done I went to rent a movie for my kids The bed time story and got Bww my husband love there wings and every Tuesday they have them for 40 cents so that is like dinner almost every Tuesday.....Then I went to do a public service I enjoy helping other people it make me feel like I'm someone tiring to make a difference, I think that everyone that has sometime on there hands would go helping people in need even if it is just to talk to them, People need that conversation to make it day by day........We'll I have had a fulling day and enjoyed myself with a little sunshine out her I'm so blessed to be able to do a work for God and have a really good family , My family is in good health, But there is always something that you would like to change but in most part I live my day as happy as can be.......

Today was a nice day the sun was shineing and I did not get to enjoy it, I was sick I have this mean headach & cough I'm praying that I get over this soon my chest feel like someone punched me..I hope tomorrow is better and I don't feel so much like today b/c I have to take my kids to the county line apple orchard for a easter egg hunt w/ a few friends and family and I want some dounuts ohhhhhhhh how I love them they are the best ..........................

I need to get cleaning my house before my husband don't want to come home, with me being sick for the last 3 days I really have not done anything but dishes......I'm watching oprah and it is talking about relationships it was neat. Today is coming to a end , I need some of my beauity sleep...goodnite

bad news

Today has been a bad day all around, I've been coughing And a headache that feel like my head is going to burst.Than I had a doctor appointment today , the one week after my DNC was done and the doctor told me today that I had a miscarriage it was a surprise to me B/C my husband was fixed about a year ago....... Well I was about three months when i had the miscarriage, Every sent my doctors appointment I've wounder the sex of the baby , I am glad that I did not know about the baby B/C it would of been harder for me to loss.............
Well I pray that tomorrow is a much better day and I'm praying that is does not rain and I can go for a walk my doctor told me I can start working out again , I felt very lazy this week while I was resting for surgery. more on another day :(

drama over the weekend

Yesterday and today was a beautiful day I been enjoying going outside and walking and playing with my kids....I love my family they are my live.. I had some drama this weekend , I don't enjoy being called names and sometimes I think people need to thank before the speak, I also had a conflict with a e-Bayer I bought a item and he said he took pay pal but as soon as the e-bay was over he emailed me and said do not pay, please pay this way western union but they want me to pay $ 15 more and I told him to subtract it from what I own him, He did not like that......so last night was alot of drama for me. So I'm hoping that tomorrow is better day.